I Get To

I had a dermatologist appointment this morning. I was not nervous beforehand but during the exam I started questioning whether I should be. I have gone to the same doctor for 5 years now and this time he really made me feel like I need to be checking every mole everyday. I felt like I am a ticking time bomb just waiting for more melanoma. I am grateful he is so cautious, I just have to find that line of being aware without living in fear.

Afterwards I went for a 10 mile run, I must admit I was not felling it. I woke up with a headache(this is normal since my wisdom teeth have been pulled) and I just felt anxious. i struggled throughout the run, mentally more then physically. I thought about turning around many times, then I would be fine then I would struggle again. Finally around mile 7 I started praying, and just thanking God for the opportunity to run, that I get to run, not have to. That is something I have been reminding myself a lot lately. I get to raise 2 wonderful kids, I get to work, I get to take care of my family, I have a house I get to help remodel. And on that note, I get to go mop floors before my sis, niece and nephew arrive!